now u don't have to go to NK to get it!

BYREDO AT BARNEYS~!



what. a. delight.

 MANMADE, Creativity and the Handmade Life for the Postmodern Male

:looks itchy and claustrophobic, or...cozy.  ?

this holy wholly frikin mammoth found on CRAFTASTROPHE--because handmade isn't always pretty

along with this questionable angora number:

at least these dudes can knit.  i never learned how.  i can crochet.  i can french-braid your hair.  i can make friendship bracelets...i'm useful.

PAIN in the NECK

i am literally such a pain in the neck to myself. my left side, now my right side... my ninja trainer told me to get this clay heating-pad thingy at walgreens and it is REALLY good. it's called THERMIPAQ and i can totally recommend it. i just pop it in the microwave for a minute and it stays pretty hot... what's really neat-o is that it's all mold-a-ble cuz it's like, clay. it also works as a cold-pack, but haven't tried it.

i must thank CORNELIUS, KATI, AND JV for their helpful comments/feedback. i hope you will feel free to comment MUCH MUCH MORE and give me lots of ADVICE, WISDOM, CRITICISM, etc. i am open to any suggestions, seriously. i feel like (is this just another excuse? u can tell me) being an only child you get conditioned to having too much alone-time to mull things over. too much time to mull and re-mull and re-play things in your head--maybe if i had had some siblings to fight with i'd be tougher today. or maybe i'd have more of a sense of place in the world. or maybe i could compare/contrast with them and therefore have more self-knowledge or something, be less doubting and stuff. actually it's not so lofty what i wanted--just to be medium pretty and medium athletic and have a SUPER HOT boyfriend who makes a SH*tload of money...NO, you know i'm kidding of course!! (he only has to be medium-hot and he can be PENNILESS, i don't care--as long as he cooks and cleans and treats me like a princess. (NO, i'm KIDDING-- but he really should be able to hook up a dvd player and change the oil in my car--NO...really i'm joking) )...

if not hugh laurie, then...

john hannah, hi. when u read the w.h.auden poem in that silly hugh grant movie (with pukey andie macdowell) i lost it completely. you are so sensitive and you have those friendly eyes and great accent. i'm sure i'm not the only one who watched sliding doors just to pretend to be gwyneth.there is room in my heart, but not yours !

what's it smell like?

BYREDO

Master Samuelsgatan 42

111 57 Stockholm

(i will investigate)

funny question

like: "Just what kind of creep ARE YOU?" is a funny question.

like there are categories or something. well, i can think of two--(1) "creepy" like scary, those to avoid, and (2)boys that ignore you suddenly and are thus fascinating (or the twilight guy, v. attractive in creepy way)

that particular question is obviously from some tv show that i like (duh), but i always thought it was a funny question.

downsizing is hard, to change the subject. my apt is 920 sq ft. i think my old apt was like twice that. my dog hates it here. my cat loves it here. i will post a pic of the best thing in my apt next time. not to be an ungrateful creep, my place has 10-ft windows in both rooms, laundry in the hallway, and i gotta extra luxe powder room (with linen closet). yeah, this should make me super happy. yet... you know.... :( persists.

i'm looking at the happy thing in my apt. you should see it. it's so perfect. why can't life be perfect? or just a little closer to perfect? and i'm not selfish--i want perfection for everyone and everything. may god perfect you too.

now i can't stop

CONFESSION: i saw star trek twice in the last week. i have never seen any other star trek anything. it's all becuz of spock.
[when i googled zachary quinto i was disappointed. i prefer him as spock. reality, as usual, disappoints.]

couple of the year--kirk and spock. so volatile. yet so complementary. such a beautiful example of male-male love, so special and rare that it lasts/exists beyond constraints of time and space...

forbidden fruit stays fresh for 2+yrs!

he comes from sheep-herders and my family are cattle people, but our twice-monthly (averaged over two years) relationship has lasted longer than most [of mine]. i'm sorry, hugh, but waiting for you was taking too long, so it's come to this. i have attitude of gratitude because it's really helped me connect with the rest of humanity like nothing else. if you care enough to judge, i'm touched genuinely, but...i beg u--don't! YOU CAN'T DESTROY OUR LOVE!*

*quote from house, i think?, 3rd season

early on-set

i totally forgot about the special ABS prize and the special ACCENT prize, addendum to HBCM (hot boyz of classical music). both go to.....richard belcher! this lovable kiwi is boyfriend of cece, sweetest girl on the planet. are these the only abs in the classical music world (besides maybe christine wu)??

wherever you are, there you... cry yourself to sleep?

wait, but but but that's not true!! i'm not miserable everywhere! if i were with colin firth, i'd be happy anywhere. also, i have been happy in (1) new haven, (2) japan, (3) palo alto, (4) salzburg, ... ok, that's it. but see, i have been happy.
last night, after i helped perpetrate a fraud on the mor--i mean, masses, i honked at slow old people as i tried to escape the parking lot. now that makes me a bad person, undeserving of 'happiness'. yet, i still blame others--i officially call for the dismissal of the main culprits, the major players hastening the demise of classical music: (i am immoral and also a WUSS, so i will only post their initials:) D.H. (big-time felon-crimes against humanity, and music) and A.H. (merely a moron--oblivious, lazy, irresponsible--but still deserves credit). i post this on my blog because someone must speak out about idiots in authority positions. well, shouldn't someone? of course this is, duh, all my opinion, i suppose. yet it feels like absolute truth. someone (not me) should do something.

HOT BOYZ of CLASSICAL MUSIC

piotr anderszewski, pianist

richard belcher, cellist, enso quartet

peter otto, ass[ociate]. concertmaster, THE cleveland orch

anthony mcgill, clarinetist, MET

justin berrie, flutist (w/hot korean prop--sorry y.k.)

ken ueno, composer, ucberkeley prof

cornelius dufallo, violinist, composer, ethel, ne(x)tworks

gustavo dudamel, boy-genius/big-hair conductor

satoshi okamoto, bassist, nyphil

jun markl, saint/conductor

DR CHASE! (jesse spencer)

courtney lewis (dr. chase doppelganger), conductor

shawn weil, actor/model

ward stare, conductor/hair-model