Saturday, May 30, 2009
i'm one of those fraudy asian-americans that use my asianness only when it suits me/ when the identity helps me get away with stuff, or hide behind The Culture. sometimes it's b.s. (like, for instance look at me trying to write my name in chinese characters--holy mess.) ok, i just figured out that instead of trying to pull off "NO ENGRISH" w/ a straight face when approached by panhandlers and harrassing possible scam-artists (usu. at symphony parking lot and powell hall environs)--which never works cuz i'm never ready for the proper delivery (derivery)-- i have decided to just go with my normal, perfect native english and say "NO ENGLISH" just regular, w/o the silly r/l switch (with is sooo offensive har), because it's nobody's business and i look the part and that should be sufficient.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Sunday, May 24, 2009
from jan.2009 atpictures.com post:
English actor Hugh Laurie has already survived nearly a decade longer than he expected as a teen--after making a pact with his friends to take their lives before turning 40. The "House" star admits he found the age unappealing, and vowed to take his last breath before growing too old.(of course he goes on to talk about the "arrogance of youth" and apologizes for his stupidity. i'm not a teenager so for me it's just sad and immature, boo.)
i never dared to hope, but now i'm a cat (ferocious, see pic) ready to pounce. my scheming brain is suddenly alive with activity. s'terrible. no, it's pro-active, and that's the word of our generation. i'm like kal penn, quitting HOUSE to work in the obama adminstration, except for me it's like quitting being a typist to go eat pizza in brooklyn. for a good cause. what?
no, it's not schadenfreude; it's survival. now's my chance to move from one cliche to another. as my dear neighbor just texted me minutes previous, "Only the strong survive." back burner to front burner, pronto!
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Monday, May 18, 2009
"...dream of waaaays....to throw it allll awaayyy.."
when i hear that part i have to have just fall on the floor, or hopefully something soft..i can't help it. if i could cry i would. it RIPS APART MY INSIDES. john mayer? i thought he was a douchebag. well, this is my kryptonite. john mayer song is my kryptonite. i am WEAK! (no, i am not; listen to this song--seriously, this guy has special powers.) hey gravity! stay the hellll a-way- from- me!
Sunday, May 17, 2009
CONFESSION: i saw star trek twice in the last week. i have never seen any other star trek anything. it's all becuz of spock.
[when i googled zachary quinto i was disappointed. i prefer him as spock. reality, as usual, disappoints.]
couple of the year--kirk and spock. so volatile. yet so complementary. such a beautiful example of male-male love, so special and rare that it lasts/exists beyond constraints of time and space...
i'm off to "opera" and stopping at borders for things to look at, to distract me from the nagging ache that is second-violin-playing.
nevermind, this is turning dull... oh i also read daphne merkin's article in last sunday's nytimes magazine that sort of gave me permission to stop faking it by writing stuff that seemed happy. if it takes a pot of coffee and an hour of self-motivational self-talk and self-loathing just to beat the depressing thoughts away, write normal happyish things, do normal errand-y things, etc., no wonder i'm dead tired by like 5pm. so, i decided to give up on everything and see what happens. [ok, full disclosure: i also ran out of STUMPTOWN and didn't want to drink sub-standard (now everything is substandard) coffee.. people from portland or red hook, help a fellow addict! 7330a Lindell, 63130! ]
here's a great quote (and accurate too) about coffee from 30ROCK:
"It's like my heart is trying to hug my brain!!" (kenneth the page)
here's another great quote from golf digest:
"Lick from the lollipop of mediocrity once, and you suck forever" (rory somebody, can't remember his name, not enough coffee--which stimulates your brain ya know)
HOLY--talk about mediocrity: i don't know how to blog, even---someone tell me, please:
1) how do you get out "blockquote" mode? (GET ME OUTTA HERE!)
2) how do you link from a word, instead of pasting the whole link, moron-style? (thank you kva--figured it out. it's the highlighting, durrr)
i gotta end this post and start a fresh one cuz i can't get outta blockquote. yes i went to college, just shut up. (someone help me with these formatting thingies)
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Saturday, May 9, 2009
last night, after i helped perpetrate a fraud on the mor--i mean, masses, i honked at slow old people as i tried to escape the parking lot. now that makes me a bad person, undeserving of 'happiness'. yet, i still blame others--i officially call for the dismissal of the main culprits, the major players hastening the demise of classical music: (i am immoral and also a WUSS, so i will only post their initials:) D.H. (big-time felon-crimes against humanity, and music) and A.H. (merely a moron--oblivious, lazy, irresponsible--but still deserves credit). i post this on my blog because someone must speak out about idiots in authority positions. well, shouldn't someone? of course this is, duh, all my opinion, i suppose. yet it feels like absolute truth. someone (not me) should do something.
Friday, May 8, 2009
"Lady Gaga is a lie,” she insisted. “I am a lie, and every day I kill to make it true.”
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
peter otto, ass[ociate]. concertmaster, THE cleveland orch
anthony mcgill, clarinetist, MET
ken ueno, composer, ucberkeley prof