oops i failed. i am vampira. but what can you do, playing concerts at night, right? oops! i wasn't supposed to turn on my computer after 1am. but even tho' it's 4 something, it doesn't feel like the usual lonely place that 4am usually is. oh maybe i feel happier cuz i held two babies (one very new one) today.
i hesitate, but i think i had breakthrough at gym. i'm not such a fraud after all. maybe.
hopefully it doesn't slip away. but then, can't try too hard to hang on, cuz then it'll really
(isn't that james joyce to end like that? i did it on purpose)