i have so much new info zipping around in my head it feels like i had a triple-espresso, twice, through a funnel, while someone held me by my feet on top of a skyscraper.
the thing is, do i have to act NOW while it's all exciting and new (love boat) cuz i don't want to forget it-- get all neurotic and try to write it all down like i usually do (not here don't worry) so as not to forget a-n-y-thing, or do i take a plunge and let it all simmer around and do something tomorrow? i never re-read those things (lists of frantic scribbles that don't have the same magical effect as they did the first time) really anyway---but it does help to reinforce things (doesn't it?). i think i talked davin's ear off about old stuff he probably already knew about but is only exciting to me. his current work analyzing people's playing by category (like, listening to one element at a time, separately--just pitch, just volume (or variation of sound), vibrato, articulation..talk about active listening--i wonder, if i could do it?) is so ambitious, in that always-learning self-driven way that i admire so much. it's so cool to expand one's notion of 'work'-- right when i label something "work" it becomes harder. i'll avoid that word. anyway, i have weird feeling of being young and hopeful and not closed-up and done-for (i'm so melodramatic)-- i want to hang on! but y;a can't i bet. well, you can't by trying to fermata there for as long as it lasts and then be all sad when real life kicks back in. SHUT UP shut up--i am not going to drizzle on my parade. big picture is the small picture is what i feel right now. and i am going to st-- ta--ing about it.